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After considering it for a while, I have started a blog over on Bearblog.dev and in the process of moving the gaming content from here to there. At the time of writing this, the introduction post is still in the drafting stage and I've been hoping to give it more polish to it before letting it go. I had thought about doing another separate Dreamwidth blog, but that would involve some bouncing between that and this account which is something I can't really see working out for me in the long run to be honest. I already have some difficulty in keeping this one active in some regard so I rather not overwhelm myself to the point of being discouraged to journal here where the content isn't too revealing. I save that for the more private journal. I have had too many ideas and most of the time I either forget about them or the rare instance that I do the said idea and become too overwhelmed to continue it.
I had read some books a little more, but some I ended up returning since they were all library rentals. (Please give your local library a visit because the current US administration is giving them a hard time anyways.) Recent finish was "The Perks of Being a Wallflower" by Stephen Chbosky. It was a lot more than what I've been accustomed to reading but it's not at all a bad thing! It was rather enjoyable even if there were some parts that felt like they dragged a bit. For the most part, I wouldn't mind reading this again - especially since the timing for reading it couldn't have came any sooner. I felt like I had some relation to what Charlie had went through with just observing and not participating in life. It might warrant another read through once I get things situated in life a bit better and can have the shelf space for it. Book reviews might not come as often but I intend to do some here since I find reading as another form of escape aside from gaming and art.
I had been attempting to resume work on website. I had gotten started on a splash page to where it showcases the content to be warned over as well as the age rating since I always wanted to use those panda censor adoptables I had found somewhere on the web since starting to build an interest in web development.
Other than the small amount of art socials (read: three being Weasyl, FurAffinity, and Sheezy) and maybe Toyhouse and Artfight over July, I have had no interest in making a page for the characters. I say that because I still feel like the ongoing interest in generative AI is far from being done. All I can say is not a big fan of generative AI and I hope the machines that are supposed to run the said things end up losing the hype/audience to the point of being a fad. I could've been more mouthy in my opposition, but I think at the same time I've grown tired of being frustrated over the topic. I can understand some upsides to AI, but the misuse of it and the unethical scrapings happening so often water down the said positives and it's rather gross.
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Making an update to touch base, but also doing an entry just to drop some ideas by and see if it sticks with future me in the off chance that my less stressed future self will have the capacity to see further ahead about an idea's outlook. For the moment, I have been trying to wind down for a bit to give myself some leeway time. Most of it is just due to what's going on in the world. I had spent a good portion of my time online either being active in keeping up in lobbying via sending emails which doesn't do much when your state reps' are just as interested as a vulture looking at a healthy rabbit. I understand phone calls do much better but again, these state reps are going to ignore that as well. Already have heard about some of the times where they end up getting hung up on when they attempt to call... Pathetic. Considering I already slung mud onto one via FB and got the torches and pitchforks of the usual "conservatives" on my bum. I didn't care much for them since that's just a bad sign of folks that I would clash with on a daily basis. It's even worse when you're a blue person in a red state politically... Only time of talking about US politics in the post. Most of the rest is just me yakking and talking about general stuff.

AI Stances and Changes for Future Uploads

Most of this break I'm trying to implement is due to the constant push of being against AI and the scrapers and those that lean towards that over human creatives. Long story short: I'm siding with creatives over "prompters", we're not gatekeeping but instead just offering alternatives that allow you more flexibility. I had always been against the idea of using AI and stand by that. I do not deny the fact that it does indeed have a place in the modern world when it comes to detecting health complications early or just sorting things out in a timely manner. I'm still questioning the authenticity of how it helps artists without a more thorough explanation. I still don't feel like it checks out with me, especially when it involves ethics and the amount of energy it takes for a machine to generate using other folks' works. Not sure where that falls on the AI feeling spectrum: anti or pro-ethical AI... It's easy to say it's complicated on how to explain it. Probably anti-generative AI. For future uploads, I had considered just downsizing the images more since it's just photographs slimmed down. I had been doing it for a while but I am in the process of tinkering with the options for the output. I had considered doing a post here or on Tumblr/Pillowfort in regards to Glazing artworks for the future. There's not a 100% guarantee it's going to deter AI scrapers, but it does try to discourage them. If nothing else, the effort to help human artists to fight back is enough to consider continuing. My biggest drawback - and I think a lot of others do this too - is that I get focused on being active I end up forgetting about my own mental health and end up being overwhelmed. I care too much and forget about myself so to speak... For the moment, I will be trying to focus on getting caught up on Artfight works from last year (and this year's depending on when I finally get this posted). After that is done and/or scheduled for the other socials minus Sheezy, I'll be giving myself some well needed time away from those. Sheezy would get posts first followed by PostyBirb getting them scheduled for a later point in time.

Cleaning up DreamWidth and Refreshing the Content

Heading this section is difficult, but the best way to explain this one is that I want to repurpose this for just general entries and a few game reviews. I had done some for demos in the past but I felt like it takes up space in a place it doesn't fit in with. I did consider Backloggd for that and just have them in the notes section of the journal, leaving the visibility open to public. I have considered doing all reviews there but if a game warrants a longer in depth look, I'll consider an entry here and link it to the review on Backloggd. Site updates were going to be here but I've considered just having a dedicated page for that on the site itself instead. Mainly because it's not going to be often I would think for a major update to drop there when I get to that point. I would still use email to DW for entries regardless, but I still want to have some form of longer reviews for games I thoroughly enjoyed and recommend. It's not as much of refreshing the content here so much as just policing myself and making it stick to the topic of personal journaling.

Personal List of Projects

Part of this might leak into the next header. I have been needing to get some personal things done - as I spot the judging stack of library books in the corner... Site work is also needing to be done but I had been wanting to find a more comfortable spot to work on that. Mainly I just have a bit too much stuff taking space with me and I have got to go through all of it. Books is on top of that list while the games are a shocking low priority since those take less room than the rest. I had considered selling this stuff I contemplated on getting rid of, but aside from a few places - I feel like I hardly get much for selling them. eBay was indeed an option as I have had an account but would of course improve whatever security is needed to strengthen up. Of course, I have no clue what I would do there either. I even considered eBay as well for Pokemon cards that I don't want to hold on to. I would probably go overboard with the thank you notes and/or doodles to add into the package. Not so much as the leave a review in positive manner because I rather folks be honest with the services than rub up to me. I value the chance to improve for future customers than being inflated by empty positivity. Already have ideas on the quote-unquote storefront name and image to display. Not wanting to be overextravagant, but just upfront. If nothing else, that would allow me to get some extra pocket change while getting stuff out of here. I rather deal with that over Facebook Marketplace to be fair. Mainly due to the nature of the sudden uptick in recent bannings of accounts and I have little trust in Meta getting that fixed up anytime quick. It still feels icky still using the service nonetheless but I kept it up to keep in touch with family... The uprising in AI content doesn't help either I suppose. Even with the hearing of some folks having their loved ones' account taken over by bots after their passing is just not the type of thing I want to hear in this day and age. It feels rather dystopian to me. Some of the other things to consider working on is a bit of fixing up and modifying older consoles I had found in my care. I am thinking about keeping the older GBA but not too sure on the older GameBoy console. While it was indeed my childhood console that I used to play Pokemon Yellow as well as Tetris and a rather hard Ren & Stimpy game on that, the need for more space for better things is there and takes more priority to me at least. At the moment, I'm more concerned about restoring it with a better power light and buttons before finding it a new home. I had also considered looking into Everdrive carts for GBA and NDS. New 2DS XL is going to be looked at by one that is more experienced with the console than myself. The D-Pad is a bit finicky with the right presses and only reads them when it feels like it. I understand the reasoning behind not fixing the little stuff but at the same time, I use the darned things enough to where it hinders the comfort of playing the consoles.

Contemplating on Tips and Wishlists for Guests to Look Through...

I really REALLY don't know why I continue to let this idea simmer but I had wanted to try both Throne and Ko-fi full time as a tip system and/or wishlisting for those that want to support and show thanks. The reason for not doing this: I already feel like I know the same issues with it, being a lot of financial issues that is shared with the rest of the states and the world. I understand some folks take up an app that rewards users for playing a game for so long on their phone - but I've tried those... They do work but they either feel so stingy with the way the games are installed (e.g. Mistplay) or have thresholds that feel like you would have to play for hours to achieve (e.g. Kashkick or Benjamin), and it sours the whole payoff. I had considered taking up art as a side hustle by offering commissions, but I'm so inexperienced it feels daunting. I am familiar with things like trades and Artfight, but that's a complete 180 compared to commissioned works. The idea of how hostile the online world is already is enough for me to never consider it for years... Especially since I don't want to repeat the cycle of having to rely on folks "reacting" to posts over likes just for social media algorithms to boost me. I feel like it would be all for naught since it would eventually backfire and won't pay off any of the cut reach just because the higher ups believe I shouldn't have rights because I'm not a guy, straight, and/or mentally typical. But I had yakked off the subject. I had taken a look at what Throne is and like the concept as mentioned earlier, but the idea of letting folks know what I've been keeping my eyes on feels a bit awkward. Its nice to know that there are some folks willing to help others out online, but I've also seen some that take advantage of it for their nefarious deeds. I'm not saying I don't trust myself in being honest, I'm more concerned about whether or not folks that do the donating and tipping to be honest and without some form of strings attached - aka donations/gifts while expecting something in return from my end.

Personal Updates + Stuff That Didn't Fit Into The Previous Paragraphs...

Needless to say, I still have a bit more to say - albeit a bit mixed in terms of subject... Recently been trying to do better with my own health and wellbeing. Some of it is already described in the gaming paragraph, but most of it is just getting stuff I don't need out of the house. Switch is in need of a looking at because the right joycon is having issues staying in the side. The latch has had enough (so do I dude) and is needing a replacement... It would require a trip to the library and some knowhow about getting into the said joycon, but I figured it would be an easy fix to do myself over sending it in. HDMI cable is in need of a replacement as well since that turned out to be the culprit of my Switch disconnecting from the TV. The 3DS stuff is rather minor, although I have gotten into the Sudomemo scene and would need to figure out how to install the DSi Photo app so I can take pictures inside the Flipnote Studio app. Definitely a different animal compared to its successor - Flipnote Studio 3D, but a welcoming one nonetheless. I did end up having to get the program that allows me to connect to the service since I have a router that is stingy about DNS changes... Phone has been getting cleaned out before the app installing and deleting fest ensues. I had been trying to consider Pokemon TCG Live as Pocket is becoming very toxic in the gacha department... I want to like it, but it feels like a departure from the TCG overall it feels watered down. I don't have access to my Trainer Club account anymore so that's what is currently stopping me from doing so. Website work has mostly been offline. I had gotten the PC to help with better ergonomics, but I have been bad about utilizing it. Maybe I need to start putting that into my habits for a while until it gets to the point of a decent website that I can safely leave alone for a while.

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Edited due to human error... Still learning the email functionality.

Like most folks, I don't agree with the way of how social media is going in terms of trying to appeal to a specific official. For me, that effort seems very futile and not worth all that work. I'm not a stranger to other socials, but the more I see folks using Bluesky because it's more like Twitter and is better - the more inclined I am to say no. And sometimes, not in a politely fashion. It has lately become more annoying than anything when I see folks with a Bluesky link but the thing I come back to is that they have openly made that decision and regardless of what others would say, they can still remain active as a user there.

I have given the space a try and I was able to get in during the invite only portion. Back then, it felt like a tame Twitter minus the trolls and the crybaby CEO. It was fairly straightforward and had no algorithm much like most of the other social alternatives I've tried. Both Pillowfort and Mastodon had no algorithm to limit posts. Heck, even the now defunct CoHost had no algorithm and worked wonderfully. The problem is more within algorithms and the concept of shadowbans. Most of that is probably best for another entry on its own.
Going back on topic: Bluesky can be a decent alternative to messy bird site, but it still has the setback of character limit. Not a huge deal except for the few that tend to post a ton of novel length status posts a majority of the time. The lists are closest thing to having am algorithm but it's also not restrictive. Handles and hashtags are part of the meta in the site so it's a decent replacement there too. But just like Twitter, I really don't think it's my cup of tea. And it's not just because of the character limitations.
While the lists can be helpful, there are some that can be used to mass block. On one hand, it's pretty fine if you just want to keep certain folks out. But then the other issue is that some use it in a malicious manner. I don't mean spreading viruses, but just adding folks to block because they are against use of artificial intelligence (like myself) or have a strong stance against NFT/Bitcoin (again, like myself). Most add them in the normal fashion of seeing their profile and blocking them the old fashion way.
Third party sites are where my next issue lies: blocked users are publicized. I'm not all for the idea of publicly saying folks are blocked by little Johnny or that Susan is blocked by the NFT herd. Both are quick thought examples, but the point of them is that I don't believe in the idea of sharing such information without consequences. If I block someone, I don't notify anyone close to them nor do I publicly say who and why. I admit to being terrible about saying vaguely I had to block someone but doxxing them is not exactly my intention. Most of it is bad venting habits...
To give credit where credit is due though, not everything about lists is bad, but the idea of blocks being publicly available if the person knows where to look feels pretty invasive to me. The only person that needs to know is the blocked and blockee.

My other issue came from the idea of a board member being involved with NFTs. I already vocalized my stance on the matter and I still do not believe that such a thing is going to help for the better. Even if it is, I know it's more than likely going to be temporary. Both NFTs and AI use a lot of energy and that's not something that needs to be done considering just how messed up the world is right now.
Regardless of that possibility of being spoofed by one with malicious intent is already the l wracking havoc on Bluesky, I still don't consider the option to create another account that is going to sit there and block one person from using it as their own. And like most other sites, there's a probability that BS mods might end up implementing some form of purging of inactive accounts because I had seen several other sites do so. Neopets and Subeta being two that come to mind pretty quick.
I say that because while I'm not a site hosting person, I've seen second hand that website hosting can be pretty pricey if you have a lot of active users. Even the ones that are on the site but aren't active surely take up some space in some aspect. So in a way, I'm saving myself the trouble of messing around with setting up another account and the mods of having to worry about yet another fodder account sitting idly.

To those with accounts already, I won't stop you considering you have the option to do that. Part of me hopes that some slip up would occur to where you find out the issues with an opened garden wall. Other part just wants you to enjoy what the heck ever you want. For me, I've already been burnt out and done with jumping from one social media to another trying to comprehend each one's issues. If in the end, I end up giving up on every single one aside from a select few like Backlogged and/or last.fm - that's perfectly okay.

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I think to start this post off, a bit of background to explain the catalyst for the entry in the first place.

Lately I've been very nose deep into YouTube watching and one video I watched was from YouTube user Yello's Island on why they bought a triage of retro Pokemon games with buyer's remorse to a certain extent. The video felt like an eye opener as I felt the same way with some of my own retro gaming purchases. Not exactly as of late, but very similar.
It really gave me the chance to evaluate my own Achilles heel when it came to retro gaming as well. Admittingly I tend to have a rough experience with saving and being fruitful with my financials but I also admit that if I was still in the same mindset of my younger self, I would not be in a better position to say that sometimes a bit of self control is a learning experience that pays itself.

I think lately with gaming prices being as bad as they are, I doubt there's going to be a relief in sight. When they're charging 50/60$ for a Triple A title that is more than likely not that good, it's hard to keep your faith in good standing when you've been burned so many times over. Needless to say, I have been less inclined to say the fact that I made regretful purchases as well.
Pokemon Shining Pearl for a good example was one that a lot of folks ripped the heck out of because it wasn't as quality as the predecessor remakes Omega Ruby and Alpha Sapphire - or Heart Gold and Soul Silver if you want to go back further. The chibi art style felt reminiscent to what the remake for Link's Awakening was like a few months/years prior - and of course, I felt some bit of err on the side of caution when it came to hype. Unfortunately the love for generation 4 (Sinnoh specifically) broke through and I was still optimistic for the games. Instead of disgust and critique, I noticed the cons of the remakes - or remasters as it feels like - while enjoying the bits of what made the Pokemon games enjoyable in the first place.
I got my copy of Shining Pearl at launch and despite that controversy surrounding the game, I had a fun time with it and seeing Vulpix in the Sinnoh Grand Underground was enough to appeal to my inner child. I started playing Platinum on the DS when I snagged it at a local GameStop for a somewhat decent price and was kind of disappointed in not finding Vulpix at all in Sinnoh legitimately. This was before I got access to my current copy of Sapphire or a DS console at all. Trading wasn't even an option because I didn't have any other people that played Pokemon as much as myself... But I eventually got Soul Silver and despite the lack of decent game corner games (read: not a big fan of Voltorb Flip), I still enjoyed the heck out of the Johto remakes. Even the new safari zone was pretty cute but a bit time consuming. Although it doesn't take long to set it up how you want and leave it alone for a couple of days or weeks. I apparently invested enough interest into the Safari Zone to find a Riolu in game without having to trade it over from Platinum (because I didn't have a way to do so). Played the first save to the point of being able to fight Red on Mt.Silver - and got intimidated by the level difference between my Pokemon and his.

Going back further, Pokemon White was my first dive into playing the Pokemon Games on the DS hardware since my previous experiences were done on an emulator. And I admit, I backed away for the reason of a little Pokemon called Kricketot...
Yes, I lost to a Kricketot in a play of Pokemon Platinum during my first playthrough of the game on an emulator. I guess at that point I didn't touch a DS game for years afterwards. That and the fact that I might of got the PC I used a nasty bit of code to constitute a knockout of the OS and a reinstall didn't help matters. Hahaha....

The most recent game I purchased over 50$ was Pokemon Scarlet and even with the issues the game has plagued I still enjoy it for the small things. The restriction of school uniforms not included... It was close to that point where I wanted to become more considerate of what price tag I decide to be okay with. But even with the close observation of sales and goodness knows what, I still fall into the trap of, it must be good if on sale!
Bit Orchard, Staxel, Cassette Beasts, Sprout Valley - to name a few were what felt like impulse buys because of the discount on a fish hook. But even with the little stinkers, I have had some nice steals when it came to smart purchases like Sonic Mania and Puyo Puyo Champions. But it's not just the digital games I have had the opportunity to snag at a bargain (although I wish it happened more for physical games). Moreso because of a nifty site called DekuDeals (not a sponsor). That and sometimes just looking up videos of the said game I want to look into helps in making my decision. There are some games that have an available demo to try out, but I felt like those can be a hit or miss. Some being as bad as giving you a small taste of what the game is like before kicking you out. Thankfully, nothing like a specific Amazon Kindle book sample that was nothing more than a cover of the book before it baits you into buying.
Now I'm not saying every demo is a soulless build of the retail version but some are just enough to convince me that I'm not going to bet on such a small amount of foresight to give the product a chance. Especially the case if the game has no physical release to consider. Probably why I'm reluctant to get Tetris Forever for that reason. But Tetris Effects: Connected was a well reasoned exception. I had played enough of the game on Xbox when it was available on Game Pass that waiting for the game on sale was worth it.

Although at this point, I notice I talk a lot about purchases I have made and not the one I tout as being the one to break me. So to bring it back real quick: pandemic came, prices for retro games went up, pandemic then left, prices dropped, but now they start going up again.
The reason for that quick point is that I ended up purchasing a copy of Pokemon Leaf Green. Knowing full well that the game shows a bit of wear and tear, knowing that while it says it's authentic I have doubts, I couldn't pass that price tag considering it's more than double that every other place...
Even now, checking the prices of other Pokemon games for the GBA being as high up as the $100+ I still doubt I made a good call because of that pricetag being so low. The cart was indeed green as an authentic one would be. But the sticker felt just enough off that it warrant a closer inspection. Turns out it might be a reproduction cart I found. I say might because it only shows the front but I can tell something doesn't seem authentic when comparing images.

Guess it does break me a bit more considering I felt baited in. But at the same time, this wasn't the first one that had the realization when it came to the seller I got it from. And I agree that they should've been more forward with the fact it's a repo, but at least they didn't tout it off as an authentic cart. So even with the buyer's remorse because it was a "fake" cart, I only hope this thing works or I could be less than happy with the purchase... At least the Sapphire cart the other person purchased it did feel pretty off considering I had seen enough of a real one. Not that I'm harping on them for not knowing. Heck some of these reproduction carts have gotten better at imitating the real deal.
Would it have been nice to get that bit of information before the purchase was made? Yes. Do I regret it to the point of withdrawing myself from this? Ehhh.... Not quite.
The panic wasn't due to the questioning of whether it's authentic or not. I blame it on the idea of why I still buy this when I have too much to juggle with in the first place but let's get more in?

To give myself credit though, it's not like I spent more on a fake cart when it's very obvious. The one I looked at was more or less better looking to the point of masquerading and passing off as genuine. And considering the previous buyer said it worked fine but wished for that bit of transparency when it came to the authenticity of the cart, I better not count the chickens prior to hatching so to speak.
It's definitely not like buying a console knowing very well how much usage it has and not having any bit of fixing up done before the owner decided to sell it off. The worst case in this point I have experience was a DS Lite from a now defunct local game store that was lacking a GBA slot cover and stylus as well as a few scratches and signs of usage. The non functional L trigger button wasn't exactly the end of the world but it was annoying.
I still got a fair use out of it and the promise of giving it a better lease in my possession in the form of a shell replacement was a worthy purchase. The fact that I was careful on the case and which seller I got it from showed just how much care I put into this small project of mine. When it came to the Pokemon cart though, I felt like I thought about the idea of playing the game in my hands over the legitimacy of the cart itself.
But then again, I sure as heck didn't want to risk spending the higher price tag for a fishy looking cart instead of the 25$ I did in this situation. I'm not letting this make me sick with worry considering how late it is in my time zone, so if nothing else I figured might as well write that mess out.
If nothing else, maybe let the seller know what comes from this mess and maybe the anxiousness that comes from whether or not this thing works or if I just paid a hefty price for a piece of plastic. Definitely not the worst thing I've bought considering I was very bad about doing digital purchases but I rather worry about this a bit than purchase a pocket full of Bitcoin baloney.

I might do an update entry to this and leave the seller the benefit of a doubt in the meantime.
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Aside from the stress of work and goodness knows what else, I think it'll work itself out if it'll just be cooler than it is now... Mostly it's just mental health and trying to figure out better ways of managing it instead of being very self deprecative and downplaying myself because I feel like I'm "not worthy of good things". It's been going on this way for a good while which is never a fun time to be had...
Also, I'm trying out email entries since it would help with the activity issues and I always liked the idea of being able to easily access my stuff. Since my email gets all the attention, why not take advantage of it? It seems a lot easier anyways than trying to juggle through the various pages just to get to the draft.

Thankfully it wouldn't come at a better time. Unfortunately, my usual go to social that's not Tumblr and the likes had some financial issues and was announced on shutting down shop. As mentioned, it was kind of a no brainer looking back but still a shock. Of course, most of them decided to just give up socials overall and do Neocities which I give them every bit of a well-meaning best of luck. I sadly wish the same but even with the handful of others to turn to, I still have the itch to pick up more... It just seems like they're Pokemon cards except I don't really pay for them with money, just my email and probably my dignity.

Recently been trying to use Sheezy since I've been able to get in. Tumblr is no longer cutting in terms of reach because it kind of stinks lately... Pillowfort is closer to CoHost but doesn't really fill in the void of the site that used to be there. I kind of found some charm in the CSS crimes even as one who doesn't tinker much with it. I know some HTML and markdown and very little JavaScript because I forget things when they're not used.
Lately been on the itch for working on Neocities/Nekoweb but I'm stuck at work being miserable. Darned keyboard thought of measurable which is not correct, but also not inaccurate... I've been trying to do better with saving back and I did find a decent PC but it's through Amazon and a lot of folks note tons of caution when getting electronics off there. Guess I was lucky with the Lenovo tabl- oh WAIT A MINUTE! NO I'M NOT! I LOST THE DARNED THING!
The laptop was of decent specs as I'm not going to do heavy work on it, unless you could count testing Blender on there for 3D stuff. I had thought about doing Steam again and grabbing the Secret of Mana remake from there since there's not a Switch version... The Windows 11 os I'm not too concerned. If nothing else, I can figure out some contrived way of dual booting it with Linux, but I'm not experienced there.

So, I had been high on stress and not really able to do much unless it's on mobile... Yeah...
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This is probably my longest entry to date. I admit this is more copy and paste rather than go to each one and burn my fingers out typing what is essentially the same thing over and over. Only thing that is really being typed for each is the intro paragraph.

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I'm probably not the first to say that I've grew up in the age where most of us were exposed to a ton of online stuff. Neopets was a big one that I can say right off the bat, but really - any virtual pet concept could fit this criteria. I even had gotten my current email address in that time frame that I still use to this day... MySpace - the original juggernaut - came out and of course some of my peers were lying about their age just to get an account there. Needless to say, I did too but couldn't keep that a secret - haha...

After the secret slipped out though, I kind of forgot about it until I came of age to get one myself and ended up deleting that faux account. Even remembered getting my Facebook now before it became the shell of its former self too invested in fighting false information rather than caring for their userbase. Sadly, even then my FB was pretty much too quiet to where it got frozen and locked for a while because I didn't do status updates and such. Even when I did, they were too uncommon it's enough for their system to think I was a bot. Not exactly - I was just socially awkward and had no friends aside from family...

I had done some virtual pet games there from the ever popular Pet Society from Playfish (screw you EA) to the rather fishy Party Town that was a ripoff and a bit of a stolen content trashbin. Even with the ups and downs that was virtual pets, I remembered both Neopets and Subeta. While I don't have my old accounts from back then, I still play. Even after my silly child self got themselves into a hot mess, I still kept to myself and loved it.

Didn't really thought about sharing my art online until at least college. Granted, I did some in highschool but it's the locked down FB sharing before the paranoia set in. I guess I tried DeviantArt before it started their lovely AI storm... I left after the drama picked up. I know one part of it was because I had deleted a comment from someone that was of a drawing that made me uncomfortable and it was done in the mural feature of the site. Their friend didn't take too kindly to it and their behavior towards me really bugged me to bits. I even had a similar issue with a group on FB I was a part of and I knew it was related to that one fox song. Thankfully that song has dropped from everyone's radar for the most part...

I don't recall every bit of it but I knew it was a heck of a lot worse when both people involved got aggressive... I think it was there that maybe my anxiety took right off like a bat out of hell. DeviantArt was deactivated and I was more in the background on Tumblr the first time around.

Long story short: left twice because of the bots going overboard and maybe one anon that probably was going through a rough day and wanted to press someone's buttons. And that's where I'm at now.

I had restarted with Itaku before departing for Artfol - both of which I never use as much anymore. One was because I never got much activity there to justify usage and the other was because it seemed way too virus cliquey to the point it felt pointless...

Between the shaky stability of Artfol servers, I gave Pillowfort a try as well as several other places: Weasyl, Inkblot, Newgrounds, DoodleAddicts, and even CoHost. Inkblot was too much work to try and get something posted and took off from there. DoodleAddicts were just not something I could work with, especially with the limitation of one upload per day unless you got a subscription. I departed from there as well.

The remaining three I still use to this day. And even though I refused to touch DeviantArt again even with the AI being front and center of attention, I have FurAffinity a try and even with the bits of content I consider not my cuppa, it's not a bad place. I eventually got to give Cara a chance and eventually gave Artfight a go this year.

Side note to mention: I also considered going back into pixel art but there's little to no sites that support it much. I do remember one that I had been on but because of the behavior of the admin that ran the app I left. Plus I had forgotten to add that I had tried Medibang's art social but left there after a bit...

Between my social anxiety (or general anxiety to be fair) and the fact that I sometimes can't grasp that I'm better off not reacting to stuff, I have had less than stellar experience with online connections. Granted, even my physical ones are very few. There's already a few I knew I forgotten like Toyhouse, Unvale, and Character Hub - but for the most part, those are more lax and are just character depositories than anything else I would think.

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The reason for all that backstory drop is because - I had a couple of times where I thought it's best to just disappear for good... I equate that to anxiety and such but it just seems like the only contribution I give is more frustration and slop even though it's not always true. I guess for me I wanted to just give people a reason to smile and feel like it's not always going to be hopeless even though I had those moments as a kid.

I've been trying to limit my time online in social media and such. Most of my online time is just Neopets/Subeta and YouTube. I even play my Switch/3DS or even touch grass in the form of housekeeping. I guess it just seems like I need to give myself grace and allow myself to breathe while trying to create my own boundaries in the cyberspace realms.

Sorry for this long read, but thank you if you've read all of it.
juliewolffang64: Miles Tails Prower from Sonic Origins: S2 Opening Sequence (Default)
Unfortunate to say that I'm still very scatterbrained and forgetful. Part of that is due to the rather hair pulling anxiety I get from work and it's been a work in progress to try and get it down to manageable levels of stress. I had been trying my darnest to get back into drawing, reading hasn't been so lucky.
Current project lately in the art department had been character reference pages. This would be my first Artfight so I'm trying to get prepared and well equipped. Finally did get them done last night but I figured a second edition is in the future works...

For those that might be interested, Artfight is an online competition that puts other artists against each other and drawing their opponents characters for points. Most do digital art, but others like myself draw ours in the traditional sense. The competition takes place in July hence the slight rush to get it finished. I do have an account under the username ookamij64.

In the gaming scene, I've been playing a ton of Littlewood with a bit of Nexomon on the side. The latter I finally got to the halfway point of the story it seems since I'm getting ready to set foot into the other half of the worlds to visit. As a fan of Pokemon, it was a nice breath of fresh air minus the readjustment to learning the different elements and the strengths/weaknesses of each.
I get a little tied up into trying to catch them all up to the current spot I'm at, but because I got the experience share I figured it would be a good time to grind while figuring out what element the next boss fight might bring. Littlewood is a bit more of a mouthful to talk about. Functions just like Harvest Moon with the idea of how every action you make progresses the time further along. Work one too many times and you end up fainting and not sleeping as well for the next day. Pretty straightforward mechanic here compared to the earlier Harvest Moon titles.
That game was where I had a lot more progress done. Already on the winter season and the highest hobby level I have is merchant at 80+. I really do like the tarot dueling side game. It's one of those that while frustrating to lose at, I think about what I've done wrong that round and can adjust before the rematch.
Again though, that takes up energy as well so...

Every now and again, I do pick up on Hokko Life. I personally recommend the game, but more on Steam than the consoles. From what I've heard, the updates are more streamlined and consistent there than the console versions. Especially true considering that Team17 published the console versions - if that was the correct term.
Lately there though, I've been doing more farm work than anything else. The forest area was built into a campy fairgrounds area while still retaining that nature atmosphere. It's by no means perfect, but it does feel like a sandbox game in similar fashion to Minecraft, even if it has the Unity styled quirks.
juliewolffang64: Miles Tails Prower from Sonic Origins: S2 Opening Sequence (Default)
Coming over from Blogger under Google, I was trying to look for something similar to LiveJournal without the messy Google stuff. Someone had given me a suggestion from Pillowfort to give this site a look.

First thing: I'm Julie and yes, I use my real first name not because of lack of cyber security knowledge (very aware of this being a risk) but because I just feel comfortable with doing so. I blame Facebook for that "garbage" thinking but I think it's due to the fact that they will figure it out eventually might as well throw the bone out. I could come up with a trillion answers to use as a response to why but I know not a single one would be considered sufficient enough. Age is not really important to display here but I'm an Aquarius sun and moon with Virgo rising (I think). I have been exposed to the WWW of the planet since about the early 2000s. I had played Neopets and such just like every other millennial child. Never really dabbled in HTML or CSS aside from copying and pasting other people's code with credit.
Very much on the spectrum of Autism - level 1 more than likely. I understand why I'm considered high functioning, but some days I'm far from that... My go to hobbies have been casual gaming, reading, and drawing. The last one I've been into since elementary school and didn't go full throttle until late middle school. Sonic the Hedgehog had been a big influence for my art but I think I can contribute the idea to draw again to my discovery of The Chronicles of Vladimir Tod.
Post high school, I ended up doing college for a couple of years and got an associate of art and design degree. Haven't been able to do much with it but I still consider it an impressive accomplishment. Much to the dismay of the media's interpretation, I'm not at all a math master. I blame college algebra for that mess... Art socials were a thing I had heavily avoided due to just not being very interactive with people, but also because I loved my pieces way too much to risk them getting bamboozled by other folks that want credit for something they didn't make. I personally don't want recognition for my works, but I have been trying to break free from the idea that popularity equals success in the social world.
As far as what I draw, it's mostly safe for work unless marked otherwise. Traditional is my go to while very rarely I will try my hand at digital on my phone. The style I have used is inspired by most of the Japanese animation and manga of the past years/centuries.
DeviantArt was one I had used back then as well as Tumblr. Left both after a while due to a lot of college stress and just drama took center stage a bit on dA... Granted, I did return to the latter in the form of the secondary account when they had issues with accounts being banned for strange reasons. Most of my footing back into it was actually Artfol of all places. Then I slowly began to try other spots and left a few as well.

As for why I chose here, it's simply because I wanted something similar to Blogger but not owned by Google and something like livejournal but a little more active.
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